I’ve been a little bit lonely lately. Not homesick, per se, but just missing have close friends to hang out with. I haven’t had a good hug in the last week.. bah. I’m sure that will change soon. It’s just so hard to meet people! My roommates are very nice and all..we just haven’t really connected on any significant level yet.. Anyway, I don’t really know what to say about that.. I guess I just miss having someone to come home to.
Today I met up with this guy, Colin, to talk about starting a band. He was kinda condescending about it in a way that only New York college kids can be (from what I’ve experience). I mean, he was hip and definitely cool, but he totally knows it. And that was intimidating to me. He’s some sort of mix of this:
He sounded pretty interested with working with me for the summer, despite the fact that I have absolutely no experience making music. He sounded as though he viewed our “band” as him “helping me out” (as he put it) instead of us being in a band together. I mean, I guess I’m not really sure how to go about actually writing songs, but he told me to get some lyrics together and we could figure something out. But honestly.. the kind of poetry I’ve written – mostly free-verse stuff – I’m not really sure that would go well with music. I don’t really know what I want. And I guess neither does he. I want us to be friends and to hang out and play and maybe move on to doing live stuff. Nothing too serious since I’m only in the city for the summer. I don’t want him to think he’s doing me a favor – I want him to be committed. I don’t know. I’m really frustrated right now because I don’t know what I’m doing, really. I guess the music I want to make is some sort of combination of this:
Oh well. I guess it’ll work out when I’ve met the right person/people to make music with. Tomato Tomato.
